Just wanted to hop on here and say that I'm still around! Our laptop got a virus and I was without internet for almost 2 weeks but I'm back and I'll try to keep up here again.
I wanted this blog to be about the positives of my illnesses but I'm also like every other person out there and I have my downs sometimes so I'm gonna write about what happened Tuesday night. I had been feeling horrible from yet another cold and it was aggravating my lungs so I was feeling kinda down. Well my mom got home and didn't help things by starting an arguement with me about something I won't mention here. I'm sure everyone knows that parents and children have their disagreements and well I like to argue my point which may or may not be a good thing at times.
I pretty much had a major meltdown or whatever you'd like to call it. Normally I'm fine after one of our arguements and I just go cool off for awhile but Tuesday I was already in a not so great mood and the arguement added to it equaled major meltdown again. I locked myself in my bedroom the rest of the night and snuggled in bed with all 3 of our cats and pretty much cried my eyes out all night until I literally cried myself to sleep sometime in the early hours of the morning right before the sun came up. It's just that around this time three years ago I lost my 1st horse and then last year on Christmas Eve I lost my great aunt and had to make the 1200 mile drive to Missouri and back with my dad only a month after getting out of the hospital and we barely made it there before she passed away. Plus all my medical issues and the ongoing colds I keep seeming to catch as soon as I get over the previous one and it all bothering my lungs, and feeling useless all the time....it just all got to me Tuesday night big time.
My point is that I'm just like every other person out there and I do have my meltdowns like anyone else and lately there seems to be a lot of them happening. Don't try to act like there's nothing wrong like I usually do, if you have to cry and have a meltdown then do so. Trust me, it does help to get all the crying out until the next time that is but let it out, don't hold it in. Been there, done the holding it in thing and it just makes the horrible feelings even worse.
Have a great day and remember it really IS ok to let it out sometimes, after all we're all human!
